"Fearfully and Wonderfully made..."

"Fearfully and Wonderfully made..."
"...You have shown me great kindness in a strong city"

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

BT Christmas and Genesis 28:16

These are some of the pics from the Christmas production. We had so much fun backstage. the last picture was taken by one of the the other girls on the dance team. As you can see we are a lively bunch :) I enjoyed every moment of it! By the time the last show ran I wanted to do 20 more! I LOVED doing it!!!!! It was a joy for me every time! I wish I could do things like that and get paid for it, that would be a dream come true.
After the show I continued to work and the worst part of that (besides it being in December) I had to work Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve and Day! It was no fun...I promise you I'm NOT bitter.
I was asked by someone about a post that I placed of fb on Christmas day about Genesis 28:16, allow me to explain myself...
Christmas this year was...different. I worked a double shift the day before and had to open the next day so there wasn't really a way to go out of town to visit friends or family. To be honest it was a very depressing time for me. Going from cloud nine the past 2 weeks to being alone for Christmas was not my idea of a holiday. When I woke up on Christmas I knew I had a choice before me; either I become depressed and angry about my work schedule or I choose to give God glory for His goodness towards me. While worshipping God I began to realize how close God has been to me without me even realizing it. I began to remember coming home whenever I had a long day at work and I would just go in my room and I would feel this presence of peace in my room as if God was there awaiting my arrival. He tucks me in at night and listens to me as I talk to Him until I'm tired, and every morning He comes in my room to wake me up. It reminded me of Psalms 139 says, "when I awake I am still with you." and He never becomes tired of me, like Jesus said He will never cast us away from His presence. All of a sudden in that very moment I began to see God in a whole new and intimate way. I always knew He was very near but that particular morning His presence seemed so real and tangible to me. I had the best Father/Friend/Hangout Partner anyone could ever ask for and didn't even realize it until that moment. And to think that this entire time I was sulking about being alone??? Surely the Lord was in my room, in my presence, with full attention, and I knew it not. How come I didn't see it sooner? Not sure, but from that moment 'til now I don't mind being in my room chillin' with no place to go. I have my hangout Partner with me. Now I know it sounds like I've lost my mind but I'm telling you, God is just as near to you as He showed me that day. And if it still sounds a bit strange to you, ask God to show you how close He is, He'll show you. At just the right time!  


Tuesday, January 22, 2013


Hello everyone! Seems as if more time has passed than I expected in between these posts. I've been pretty busy between work and dance, and it's been a real blessing. So far this year has gotten off to a rough start so this post would be a great reminder to me of God's amazing faithfulness. After the summer program with H+ I had an opportunity to be apart of a music video which was pretty. cool. Then later on in November I got to break out of the country and go to Northern Ireland to see my friends get married.


First off I just want to say that this trip was NOT planned at all! God totally surprised me with this one! I still can't seem to wrap my head around it. I had an AMAZING time! They spoiled me the entire time I was there! Had a great time with great food and great people. I asked my friend if she was going to throw her bouquet after the wedding like we do in America and she told me that it wasn't apart of the Irish tradition, but she decided to do it anyway since there were a few Americans present. Well, she threw the bouquet and I ended up catching it. Third wedding in a row that I've caught the bouquet, not so sure what that's suppose to mean after the third time :). That Sunday me and one of Tim's (the groom) friend and I went and explored Dublin, and ended up at the Guinness Storehouse. I really wanted to explore London also while I was there but wasn't able to make it happen. I'm saving that for this year. If the LORD wills I will be in London and Germany in August of this year to celebrate and dance at my friend's wedding. I'm so excited! Can't wait!
 In September I began preparing with the Brooklyn Tabernacle Dance Team for the Christmas production. The people on the dance team are some of the coolest and funnest people I've worked with on a dance team. We all compliment each other very well and they are all very encouraging. Being on the team challenged and helped me a lot physically and mentally.  I've come to learn that dancing is more mental than anything. As a dancer you have to let go of anything that keeps you from being focused from capturing the choreography that's being given and you also have to let go of anything that hinders you from freely executing the movement. You also have to be confident in knowing that you know how to execute the movement which is something I've struggled with so many times, knowing that I'm not a professionally trained dancer. This is something I constantly came face to face with throughout the year while doing different dance events or classes. I know God created me the way I am for a reason. It's so obvious, and I can see it myself but my mindset still needs to catch up with what God wants to do in my life. I don't want to limit myself or what God desires to do in my life. He really did a lot of pruning in that area last year not just in dance but in other areas in my life. He's still doing it.  I see the challenge. It's difficult, but I still want to face it head on. I'm grateful that He wired me that way. He knows exactly what we need and how much we can handle, and He'll give us amount of strength we need for each season of our life.
So I'm going to end here and post some pictures from the Christmas production, I know it's gonna be backwards but I think it will work out better. Don't want to post over any pictures :)

Friday, January 11, 2013

Summer Intensive W/ H+ Continued....

So there was a loooong delay in adding those summer photos. I have so much to add to this page. I seem to have some extra time coming up so I will keep you all posted on the rest of 2012 up until now very soon...